Monday, January 18, 2016

A Thorn

I should be starting the dishwasher
Making cranberry & white chocolate scones for Mr. J.D.
Cleaning the toilets
Stitching little dolls

But first I'm going to tell you a story.

I have been having one of my times of struggling with Cerebral Palsy. They come out of nowhere and threaten to ruin me. 

last night Olivia Deane did not sleep well. She kept crying/moaning, so she came to sleep with us. Well, I freak out...she's just had a seizure .... she's on the verge of a crazy sickness ... her brain is wigging out. The list goes on. It is probably just a cold.

But I get so incredibly frustrated ... because it is a giant guessing game. I have absolutely no idea what is bothering her.

So here I am fighting with the devil ... while trying to be a good mom. Difficult.

We have to leave so I bundle them up ... get Bodie buckled in and then go to buckle her up. It is hard because she isn't as limber ... which reminds me all over of CP. So I took a deep breath...and prayed outloud that God would help us both thru this somehow.

I do the splits and clamber to the front ... land my hiny in the drivers seat ... and something tells me to listen to 94.3 .... ok fine... i turn it on.

A man is rambling about feeling insecure ... 
insecurities ??? 
ok. Typical problem ... right?

Then he proceeds to announce that he had asked readers to send in their favorite comfort verses. A man sends him 2 Corinthians 7-10.

Read it.

Paul has a thorn...but God says his grace is sufficient. 

The man explains that he has Cerebral Palsy. It is his thorn. Long story short...Religion had told him it was from demons...Doctors told him he wouldn't be able to do anything with his life ... but at 19 he met Jesus. God let him know he would do wonderful things with his ailment. Today he is a retired Youth Pastor,  Pastor, Father & Husband. 

I was sobbing...could barely see the road.

you see .... God's grace is sufficient. We may not be asked to build an ark. But rest assured, He will ask something of you. And then he'll offer grace. Beautiful wonderful unmeasured Grace.

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